I’m not telling you nothing you didn’t know by now. Writing is not a walk in the park, is hard and takes up all your free time – if you want to be serious about it. Before I thought it was the most pleasant thing to do in the world, it made me happy and I had a chance to spread out my imagination whenever I felt like it. I sat down and wrote something that made sense at that moment and then stood up and left to my life. For me that was writing.
When I was young and wrote poetry, everything was much easier. Poems are not long, don’t take as much time to write as a story, I put them on the piece of paper and that was it. Back then I had free time and got bored during the summer vacations. There was no internet or social media, I didn’t even had a computer and the TV didn’t had as many interesting programs. Now nothing is as easy as I hoped it will be.
It’s simple to complain that you are too busy to write, than you don’t have time as professional writers do, easier than sitting down and write. I still do it sometimes, both the writing and the complaining parts. I’m not yet disciplined enough to have a daily schedule, I do a lot of procrastination and mistakes not matter how much I try to make myself better.
I have a full time job and that pretty much takes up my day and my energy. There are days when I get home and all I want to do is relax, close my eyes and dream, watch a movie, anything but concentrate on whatever project I’m having at hand. We all need free time just for ourselves, we need to relax, sleep, eat, work, spend time with family and friends. If you are passionate about it, you can find time, as you do with your everyday task.
I often get tired. Stress is a factor that gets me to this, busy days after which I can’t stay anymore in front of a computer. I hate the noise that it makes, I hate sitting in the chair, I have a pain in my hand from writing, I’m annoyed of how slow it all goes and I feel my eyes falling down. I lose sleep hours and they make me cranky. It often happens that I put writing aside whenever I feel I can’t do it. It is so easy to procrastinate…
There are days when the ideas come natural and others when you need to squeeze the corners of your brains for something to come up. It is a lot of effort and work to be put in when you want to make it better, when you want to make yourself better. Research, write, read, edit… it is not all done in one sit. I know there are others out there with much more willpower than me who do it when they have so much more going on in their lives and I respect them for that.
One thing that never changed through the years is the happiness that writing gets into my life. And that make everything worth it.